[ He knows that isn’t his line. His line is something more like: She was probably afraid. She probably did love you. She probably wanted what was best for you.
But to the limited extent he ever gets angry, he is. Indignant, at least, on Athessa’s behalf. ]
Especially if she was trying to do it for your own good. That was not her choice to make for you. Not by making you feel unwanted or foolish.
[ Athessa chuckles, softly, appreciative of the sentiment. The smile that translates through her voice isn't for the memory she speaks of, but for Bastien. Because she's telling it to him. ]
I've found myself thinking about her a lot lately. Mostly about how I felt back then, and how I feel now. Wondering if it's always gonna hurt. [ She's been thinking about that old flame of his, too, wondering if Bastien is hurting the same as she. But she keeps that to herself. ] Not that I can remember what it's like not to.
[ The chair creaks as she sits back and rubs at her eyes. She can feel her body begging for her to just turn in already, get some rest before the new day. If she didn't have to worry about hiding the crystal, she'd happily fall asleep talking to Baz. ]
[ Maybe it’s Deimos—he doesn’t know about Derrica—or maybe it’s the wind being the same temperature and speed as it was once on a night with Ciara, maybe she passed someone who smelled the same. ]
Allowing for whatever fondness or forgetfulness that time hath bestowed?
[ Hath. Who talks like that? ]
Back then, she seemed to have everything figured out. Reckon it's just 'cos she was there longer than I ever was, but she looked out for me. Even when people treated her like shit she was kind. She had this way of making everything else seem less important just by holding your hand or touching your cheek.
[ In retrospect, Ciara was probably planning to teach Athessa how to have the same qualities. Grooming to survive a brothel outside Guild oversight. ]
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[ He knows that isn’t his line. His line is something more like: She was probably afraid. She probably did love you. She probably wanted what was best for you.
But to the limited extent he ever gets angry, he is. Indignant, at least, on Athessa’s behalf. ]
Especially if she was trying to do it for your own good. That was not her choice to make for you. Not by making you feel unwanted or foolish.
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I've found myself thinking about her a lot lately. Mostly about how I felt back then, and how I feel now. Wondering if it's always gonna hurt. [ She's been thinking about that old flame of his, too, wondering if Bastien is hurting the same as she. But she keeps that to herself. ] Not that I can remember what it's like not to.
[ The chair creaks as she sits back and rubs at her eyes. She can feel her body begging for her to just turn in already, get some rest before the new day. If she didn't have to worry about hiding the crystal, she'd happily fall asleep talking to Baz. ]
I dunno why I'm thinking about this now, either.
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[ Maybe it’s Deimos—he doesn’t know about Derrica—or maybe it’s the wind being the same temperature and speed as it was once on a night with Ciara, maybe she passed someone who smelled the same. ]
What was she like?
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[ Hath. Who talks like that? ]
Back then, she seemed to have everything figured out. Reckon it's just 'cos she was there longer than I ever was, but she looked out for me. Even when people treated her like shit she was kind. She had this way of making everything else seem less important just by holding your hand or touching your cheek.
[ In retrospect, Ciara was probably planning to teach Athessa how to have the same qualities. Grooming to survive a brothel outside Guild oversight. ]